Working Gal

It’s been quite some time now since I last blogged about my life. I was always too tired, too sleepy, too lazy. Those or someone else was using the computer.

I started working just last week and yet, it seemed such a long time already. I still don’t have prospective clients so more often than not, I stay at the office—staring at the project fact sheets, checking my emails via my cellphone, looking for not-so-busy people to chat with, listening to office backstabs and intrigues (hehe!), or just simply walking around trying to find something else to do. Don’t get me wrong. My job isn’t supposed to be boring. When I start to get the hang of this job, I should be out there in the field—on client calls, site trips, etc. As of now, however, I’m stuck at the office.

Surely, I miss my life as a bum! I miss the times I’d get out of bed just in time for lunch. I miss not doing anything without feeling guilty about it. I miss being a couch potato—watching TV, VCDs, and DVDs all day and all night long. I miss being able to sleep late. I miss blogging. I miss the telebabads. I miss going out with my mom and aunts for lunch. I miss dropping by my aunt’s house because...wala lang! Heck, I even miss declaring that I’m a bum and being proud of it!

I want to enjoy my job, believe me! But slowly, I’m getting too stressed and frustrated that I might not be able to sell any property at all. I do have the right connections, a great network. But still, without the proper training yet, I don’t have the confidence to go out there and sell! I’m too scared to make any mistake since I know that I small misunderstanding can lead to a huge issue. I can lose not just one client. Who knows what that client can do—to me and my so-called career?

I’ve reached the point that I started to think my parents might be right and that I should have listened to them. I even started thinking if I should just quit. And I’ve just worked for a week and two days! Ugh!

But no, I won’t do that. Yes, I know my pride’s as high as Mt. Everest. Umm... Perhaps a little lower than that! Hehe! But for once in my life, I’m happy that I’m too proud to just quit. I still want to prove to myself, to my parents, and to everyone who discouraged me that I can do this. Yes, it’s gonna be hard, but that won’t stop me from succeeding! And someday, they’ll tell me that it’s good I was too stubborn to heed their unsolicited advices.

Well, I hope. Right now, I’m praying that if I believed hard enough, miracles can happen! I can do this. I know I can. I just need all the luck I can get!